|
An other day, an other long never ending day. My brains died 6 months ago. But my body was still moving on. Or at least what was left of it. Drugs alcohol and parties ruined everything that was left of it. There was nothing left over from the guy I used to be. My soul was empty and my heart was broken. My friends had turned there back at me. Only my closed friends Cone and Steve where still seeing me. But I knew they didn’t understood me. Maybe if I would have tried more, that they would stay with me. But it didn’t care anymore. A few years ago I would call myself crazy think like this. But since Avril left me I didn’t care about anything. I had been trying to chance myself. But after just one week I had noticed that nothing in my body wanted or had the power to chance. I simply gave up. I used to see light in live but now I only saw a big dark hole. And there was nothing that only looked as light in it. I took a deep breath and looked at my messed up face in the mirror. This is how my life would look like. With a beaten face, using drugs and being alone. Alone with a memoir of a girl who left me with a broken heart. A tear run down my face. This was the first one. The first tear in 6 months. A tear of anger at tear of fair. But most of all a tear of love.
|