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Glad you liked it... I'll think of more stuff to write when I'm at school... Speaking of which I should probably finish getting ready... But I'm just sitting here... *OOPS* lol update for ya...

His grip didn't loosen. "It's not all bad you know. Well that's what I've heard." His face went bright red. "Oh my god, Chris are you a virgin?" I didn't think it was possible for him to go even redder, but he did. "Yeah, I am." Was all he said. I smiled at him and kissed his neck. "Wow, I didn't know that." He was still red. "Don't make fun of me because I still am." I shook my head. "I'm not making fun of you, far from it. Chris I envy you. God, I'd be a virgin too, if I hadn't been raped my whole friggin' life." His face went back to it's normal color. "I know this sounds bad, but if you wouldn't have been gone through that hell, we wouldn't have Alex." I burried my face in his shoulder. "I know, that's why I don't think I'd change anything. I mean if I could go back, could change it all. I don't want to lose my son, I love him and Chesney too much."

Chris

Is it bad of me to think that? I love her to death, and would do anything to protect her, to take her pain away. But if she were given the chance to go back and change it all, I don't think I would handle it too well. I love Alex too much, and if she went back. Well, not only would that quite possibly change the fact that he exists, but she probably wouldn't be the same person she is today. Then again if she could change it, then she never would have been taken from me in the first place. We would have had the chance to be together while we were growing up. Then again, if she wouldn't have been taken, Avril wouldn't have either. Meaning that Avril never would have become famous. Oh how one thing could lead to another. Change that one thing, and you've changed everything. I just have to let Hope know that I love her, and if she did decide that she want's to do it, then I'll make sure I won't hurt her. I'd never do anything to hurt her, I couldn't do that.