[pigster]

Well I dont like to talk about this because its in my past and i dont like to bring up my past. When i was 13 i started to harm myself when i was 14 i started to cut when i was 15 my parents found out what i did (let me tell you somthing oh my gosh) i had never been screamed at so much in my life! I was horribly depressed from 13-15 and about 9 months after stopping cutting ( i had to quite cold turkey that was hard) I went into an even worse depression to the point i was like im done with life im done with every thing I couldnt handle it any more i was being made fun of constantly by people i couldnt handle it so 1 night it got so bad that i planned every thing out i wrote out letters i planned every thing, But rite before i did like rite before i called up my 1 good friend and i was like im sorry and i told him thank you for trying to help me and he talked to me for well over an hour and talked me out of it. If it wasnt for him i wouldnt be here and i no that. I suffer from anxiety. My mood can be so out of whack some times i hate it. But i deal with it and its hard but i have to deal with in in my own way. I am proud to say that its been 4-5 years that i havent cut.

Like last night i was told that i wasnt cared about by any of my friends that they dont care about me they dont like me. It was so hard to hear that and it hurt so bad to hear that exspecially from the person it came from and i was so angry and i started to believe it i was like you no nobody doesnt care about me why should i live but then the more i thought about it i was like first of all i only feel this way because im angry not because i want to but because i was angry and second of all i no 1 person at least 1 person cares about me so then i calmed down and got myself together.