The End of The Beginning and Spaces In Between

[avandspfan]

(Not an Avril story)

Here's To Something New To Read That's Not Avril Related.



Today marks day 17 in the same fight with that same friend. I wish she would stop being so fucking ridiculous. Yes, I get it, she's a million miles away but it's not my fault that she won't talk to me. I don't care, if she's not starting something, then I start something. So who's to parting and going different ways? Well the alcohol in this system of mine is screaming, "Me, me, me..."

So I don't know where to start, this feels like the beginning again, more like the end of the beginning, while I desperately try to fill the spaces in between. I really wish it hadn't come down to this, really. My intentions were quite well. But I'm assuming that either you got the best of me, or that she did. And I think I'm still talking about that chick from the city of the damned. Yes, I said it. Sorry, couldn't help it. What would you do in my position? Smile? Move on? What the hell are you on? No, something like this shall not be let go of until she pays. This pathetic heart of mine, shelled out so much love and affection and I was the greatest best friend that I could be. But her insecurities got the best of her and then her temper and cold words got the best of me. Chain reactions are so amazing aren't they? I'm so over all of this. Really, I am. Everything and anything is falling to pieces. Beautiful jagged pieces, be careful you might cut yourself. The reason I live, the reason I breathe, the reason I write, is because there's got to be something more to toast to every night, and because it's the only way to maintain some sort of sanity in this god forsaken world.


-Signed, Your Common Misconception

[ktg205]

basically, i wish i had badass writing skills like you. and i like this a lot so far
now go finish 'starting over' haha