A long way to go [part 2]

[Phili]

Aaaah, Deryck!

Noooo! Avril!!! Look what you did!

[bunny]

Slowly I opened my eyes. In front of me I saw Cone and Steve. ‘’Man your okay?’’ There worried looks told me what happened. And I felt guilty. If I didn’t had used drugs, I wouldn’t passed out. ‘’Yes, I am okay, I think.’’ The helped me up and took me to the bed. My head was still spinning around. But I knew what was going on and I knew where I was. ‘’What happened?’’ Cone sat next to me on the bed while Steve was getting me water. ‘’I don’t know, something went wrong.’’ Steve handed me the glass of water and sat down next Cone.
‘’I don’t know.’’
‘’Don’t know what?’’ Steve and Cone looked at me confused.
‘’I don’t know if I want to go on like this.’’ My heart was deep and empty. It used to be filled with pure love. It want a way. Everything I felt moved out of it.
‘’Deryck, you can chance this.’’ Cone put his arm around me.
‘’I don’t think I can. I just can’t live anymore.’’’ A long tear run down my face. It’s said. The thing I was most scared of tell had came out of my mouth.
‘’I can’t live without her, I just can’t. I have been trying so hard. But everything reminds me of her. Every day I wake up I am wondering where she is. Ever night I go to bed I wish she was next to me so I could hold her.’’
I tried to take a little stop to think before I would say more. But it came all out everything that I had been hiding for so long.
‘’I just want to die, I just want to know if she is really over me. If so then…….’’
The guys came put there arms around me and hugged me. It must have been the most gay moment I had ever had. But it didn’t matter.

[Morenor]

WOWWW, please don't make him kill himself, I have read one of your stories when he kills himself and I was not happy about that and there had Avril died before so I was aboulutly crying over that one, and you know what story I'm talking about..

But enought about that..

AWESOME, JUST AWESOME MOMMY !!!!!!!!!

[Phili]

lmao, "the most gay moment I ever had"...

The update was really sad, but that line was kinda funny.

[Seyary_Minamoto]

WHERE ARE YOU, AVRIL RAMONA LAVIGNE?????????

[bunny]

New York city
The tree was still on his old place, the restaurant we used to go to was still open and the parking lot where I helped Avril out on day was still there. Avril told me before she left me that she would be in New York. She sold her house before we moved in together. So I had no idea where to find her. Steve and Cone wanted to come with me. But I left them in LA. I needed to do this on my own. She needed to tell me the true. All I wanted to know if she doesn’t love me anymore. If she can say it in my face. Then I know I can move on with my life. She never told me she didn’t loved me anymore. All she said was ‘I think I need some time off. Just to get myself back together after all that happened.’’ I knew there was a chance that she had found someone else. I just didn’t want to think about that. My eyes went over amazing Central Park. I knew that if I had luck I could find her here. But there where so many people. I walked to the old tree where Avril and I used to sit and I made myself comfortable on the grass. There had been so many hours we spent sitting there and just watch the world passing buy. Dreaming and talking about what our kids would look like and about our wedding day. But non of these things had ever became true. My eyes closed while I slowly felt my brains where getting turned off. After being half a sleep half listening to the kids playing just a few meters a way from me, I felt a warm hand touching mine. It was a woman’s hand, I knew for sure. My heart started to beat faster. While my body was still acting like I was sleeping. I did want to open my eyes. I was only afraid that I would scare the woman away. And since this was Avril and mine tree……………….

[Morenor]

AMAZING MOMMY, just amazingly written