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11-19-2007, 01:32 PM
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woooo yayyy hows the update doing?
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Member of the week August 17th - 23rd 2008   Blend made by me, avater made by Sylvia Thank you  Avril Lavigne 4th June 2008 London The Best Damn Tour I was there!!! My Family Iva and Ida are my Daughters, Avie and Jeanette aremy granddaughters, Beautiful Tragedy is my aunt twice removed and is also Iva Godmother check out my Avril Artwork (I take requests) |
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11-19-2007, 01:44 PM
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ok then have fun at the music class
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11-19-2007, 02:37 PM
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Nothing even the look of Deryck sleeping made it chance. Nothing I did or looked at made it go away. For two months now it had been away. Two months of pure happy ness. But now, on a way I didn’t understand it had came back. The black thing that I called my dark soul had came back In me. I didn’t want to feel it I didn’t want to think these bad thoughts. But I couldn’t fight against it. It was so strong. My heart was beating faster while I looked at Deryck. He was so damn cute, but it didn’t moved me, it didn’t moved me at all. He looked cute, but it wouldn’t help me with anything. First my feet and then the rest of my body got out the bed. On naked feet’s I walked to the bathroom of our house. While I stood in front of the mirror there was nothing wrong with me, nice hair, nice body and even nice looks. But when I pulled off my shirt that look at me chanced. It was messed up everything. The scares where all over the place. Not just one or two, but so many. A lot of them had fade away. But one scar will no one see. A scar deep in my heart. It will never fade away. I hated it, I hated myself and I hated the fact that Deryck thought he was understanding me. How could he understand me if I wasn’t even understanding myself?! I looked at the knife in my hand. But could I go and cut myself again? I promised something two months ago. Not to Deryck or God. But to myself, that I would step out of this. But it was so hard to believe it would ever go over. In ten years I would still be the same person, but will may thoughts be the same to?
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