Long time coming

[angie17]

I´ll post an update tomorrow! And it´s gonna be a loong update! And you will officially read what´s up with her!

[avrilrocks4lyf]

whoop-whoop

[Morenor]

w00t

[angie17]

"Well, sorry for that question, but it is important that you answer this honestly, have you ever slept with your boyriend since you´ve been together?" "What the f*** did he just ask me?", I couldn´t believe what I had heard. "Of course n..", I started to reply, when pictures of that night we had been at one of my friend´s party suddenly came into my mind. I felt as if I was in the middle of a bad dream but this time it was real, there was no way out of this. The docter wouldn´t even have to speak on cuz I knew exactly what he was gonna tell me, but he did. He could see from the blank stare of my eyes that I already knew it. But as I had been pretty drunk at that party I had totally forgotten what had happened there - until this moment. "Michelle, I think we both know what´s up, I´m not a 100% sure but from my long time experience I would say you´re pregnant. I already have taken your blood and sent it to a lab, in one or two days I´ll tell you the results." I was hearing what he was saying but I felt as if wasn´t me at all. I felt like I could watch myself from the outside, as if I was outside my body and the doctor just told this someone else, like watching TV. I was fighting to hold byck my tears cause I didn´t want to cry in front of the docor. "could you please not tell this my mom, I wanna tell her myself..." I begged him and he nodded with an understanding smile. "You´re 17 and I´m not allowed to tell your mom without your permission anyway", he told me. Overwhelmed by my tears that I couldn´t hold back anymore I rushed out of the practise , I just wanted to get home and lock myself in my room and never come out again. My whole body was shaking as I was running past my mother who was still waiting for me outside. She wanted to follow me but I was faster than she was. While I was on my way home, still running, of course, and my eyes full of tears I thought about how stupid I was to not remember having slept with Kevin at that party and to not even notice that I hadn´t got my period this month. I had been bothering so much about my dreams and my morning sickness that I hadn´t even realized that sickness is one of the earliest indicators for a pregnancy. Pregnancy, that word sounded so weird to me, I had never expected that it would happen to me at such a young age, I mean, it´s normal for a 25 year old woman to have a baby, but not for a 17 year old girl, what did I know about raising a kid - nothing. I felt completely lost and I was thinking of the best way to tell my parents and, of course, Kevin. How would they react? But I was too exhausted to worry about that and when I finally arrived at home I quickly made my way to my room and lay down on my bed where I now started crying a lot heavier than I had ever cried before in my whole life. A few minutes later I heard my mother knocking at my door. "Honey, what´s the matter with you? You know you can talk to me about everything.." From the sound of her voice I could hear that she already knew what was up and I supposed she had known it the whole time, but wanted a doctor to tell me..I didn´t feel like talking to anyone now and with a weak voice I said: "Please stay out, I´m really tired right now, can´t we talk later?..." "Sure" she said, which surprised me as she usually dind´t give in that fast. Then I heard her going downstairs and mumbling something to my dad that I couldn´t understand.....

Silence is ringing in my head
Stuck on repeat
Not much longer, I'll be dead
So just forget me
I'm losing my mind
And I don't think you could save me this time
And it goesOn and on
And I just feel helpless
How long will this take to wear out
On and onWhen will I get through this
Welcome to my own down and out
I'm falling deeper in this hole to disasterI
'm gripping what I thought control was falling faster
I'm losing my mind
And I don't think you could save me this time
And it goes On and on
And I just feel helpless
How long will this take to wear out
On and on
When will I get through this
Welcome to my own down and out
It's dragging on I 'm wearing thin
I can't stop these walls
They keep caving in
It's gone too far
Where's my mind
Why can't I stop fear this paranoia
It's a never ending story
And it starts with me
It's a never ending story
And it starts with me
And it goes On and on
And I just feel helpless
How long will this take to wear out
On and on
When will I get through this
Welcome to my own down and out
It's never ending
I'm falling further
Welcome to my own down and out

[Morenor]

OK, I can't read it when you have it like that in just one line, it is to much for my small brain, so can you make it bigger, and add more space to it so I can read it

[avrilrocks4lyf]

wow great update
lilja stop complaining lol only joking

[Morenor]

like I'm complaining, its just hard to read Fix it please so I can read, its to hard for my small brain to read

[angie17]

Just fixed it, I didn´t realize it was standing in one line. cuz I pasted it and on my screen it was shown normally...but now I saw it too and changed it...hope, it´s better now....

[Morenor]

I saw you fixed it but still it is in one line, do it like me, when people talk you use " like everybody, but put each "" in each line, if you have it like you do know it is taking to little attention towards it and thruthfully I get distracted.. Sorry for sounding like a total bitch

[Morenor]

But I read it and can't wait for more

[angie17]

hey guys, I actually intended to update today but if I dion´t get more comments, then I won`t, so I want at least 4 more comments before I post an update....

[Morenor]

Did you saw what I told you to make your updates be much easier to read, and if they are more ppl come and check on your story