Long time coming

[angie17]

now, I´m just typing it!

[Morenor]

yay

[angie17]

The following days were passing me by and I felt as if I was in a surreal world, like I was dreaming and I was hoping to wake up finding out that it had just been a bad dream. However, that wouldn’t happen and deep inside of me I knew that although a small part of me was hoping that the doctor’s results would prove I wasn’t pregnant. That was really stupid of me to believe because suddenly I heard the phone ring and you can guess now who the caller was…

“Hi, here’s Dr. Martin, I just wanted to give you a call and inform you about your test results. Well, to make it short, it’s been positive which means you are definitely pregnant. Normally I always congratulate my patients to that but I don’t know it that’s appropriate right now… Have you already talked to your parents or the father?”

“I’ve talked to my parents”, I said, remembering the long talk with them the day before, which hadn’t been very pleasant but at least my parents had assured me that they would support me in my “situation” as they called it.
Then I was thinking of the hardest part of it all, I would have to tell Kevin, who I hadn’t been talking to in a while, since that party to be precise…I had absolutely no idea how he would take the news or how he would react.

“So, Michelle, I wish you the best for your future and should you have any question you can call me anytime. I’ll also give you the number of an information center for young mothers.”

“Thanks for that, bye” I answered trying to sound as happy as possible even though I really wasn’t.
Then I hung up the phone and took a deep breath. I knew what I had to do next….
With shaking fingers I dialled Kevin’s number.

“Hey baby, what’s up? I’ve tried to call you a couple of times in the past weeks but your mother always said you weren’t feeling that well. So, what’s up with you?”

“Well, there’s something you should really know…”

“What is it?”, he asked after a short break.

“I can’t tell you over the phone, could we perhaps meet later this afternoon in the park?, I asked him.

“Sure”, he sounded very understanding and I was hoping he would still sound that way after our talk….

[Morenor]

There the update came, awesome as ever...

I wonder how Kev will take the news..

[Suzee]

This is so awesome Angie Love your fan fic

/And I already anticipate what it is about..or better, who /

[Seyary_Minamoto]

I'm positive I'll get another posible fic victim soon... that Kevin WILL go down if he doesn't help Michelle out...

[angie17]

It was4.10 pm; we had planned to meet at 4. Would Kevin show up or not? What if he already knew what I wanted to tell him? No, that was bullshit, how could he know?
I was staring at my watch when I suddenly saw him coming.

“Hey”, he said hugging me, “What is so important that you couldn’t tell me over the phone?”

I became so nervous that I just felt like running away.
“Come on, tell him, it isn’t THAT hard to do” I was thinking but it was easier to think than to actually do it…
“Well, you remember that party last month, you know where we were at your friend’s house?”

“Yeah, I do remember it, so?” he looked as if he had absolutely no idea what I was gonna tell him.

I was looking away so that he wouldn’t see how nervous I was.
“I guess then you also know what happened there…”

“I know that, although I had really drunk a bit too much that evening.”

“Me too” I thought, “Otherwise I wouldn’t have ended up in bed with him that fast…”
“So my mom told you I was feeling bad?” I asked him.

“Yeah she did, but nothing more.”

Taking a deep breath I just said “I’m pregnant. “ That was all I could manage to say and I felt that this was also more than enough.

“You’re pregnant?” he asked “Are you sure?” He was obviously starting to get nervous; I could hear that from his voice.

“Of course I am, 6th week, otherwise I wouldn’t tell you” I answered.

“And what are you planning to do?”

“What I am planning to do? Is this all you have to say about it? It is your baby as well!”

“Man, I don’t really know what to say… I mean, what do you want from me? It was one night and I couldn’t know what it would lead to… I’m planning to go to college after school and then to university and a baby doesn’t fit in my plans at all. I think that’s too much for me to handle. I’m sorry.”

He didn’t sound sorry at all, just like a guy who didn’t want to take responsibility for what he had done.
“So you’re telling me you’re out or what? You think it’s that easy? I know it’s easy to say but you’re not the one who has this baby inside of him and who will have to care for it and everything. Nobody will be making comments about you or stare at you… But I can tell you one thing: I will not have an abortion because I take responsibility and I’m not a coward like you are! It’s not the baby’s fault it’s there and therefore I can’t kill it. “

My eyes were slowly filling with tears and my voice started to break, I felt so helpless and I was so disappointed of Kevin. I just wanted to scream at him but I was too weak. I had always thought he was a guy who I could trust but I had been so wrong.
He had not the slightest idea what was going on inside of me and he made the impression as if he didn’t care about my feelings at all. As if I didn’t have a future and plans, all he could think about was HIS life…

Of course, he was afraid, but what about me. No one had asked me if I was afraid.

He was standing there with his face looking to the ground, his hands in his pockets.
“I hope you can understand me, I’m not ready for that, not yet…”

“And what should I tell our baby when it’s older and asks about its father? Should I just say: ‘Your daddy was a big coward and didn’t care about you?’ “

“I don’t know. I just need some time for myself. I will think about it but the best thing would be if we parted and everyone lives their own life…”

I couldn’t believe what he had just said, that was a nightmare. I wanted to wake up.

“Fine, I said, I will raise this kid on my own, I will try to do as much as I can so that it has a good life and I will manage it without running away”, I tried to sound as convincing as possible but my voice was still a bit shaky. I was so incredibly angry and sad at the same time.

After our eyes had met for a few seconds I turned around not saying a word and went away. Tears were running down my face like a river and my whole body was shaking. I felt cold although it was really warm outside. I slowly made my way home.
Now I knew what a broken heart felt like and it was hurting like hell.


Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say
I was left to cry there,
waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided

Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
You, you need to listen I'm starting to trip,
I'm losing my grip and I'm in this thing alone

[Morenor]

Wow. that was big

and that Kevin is just like a normal guy, can't be responsible for their actions ..

Awesome, like always..