A long way to go [part 3]

[bunny]

guys, just a short while and I have holiday, then I will update more

[avrilrocks4lyf]

awww such a cute updates and little kids are so mean lol

[simple_minds]

aaah that wasnt really nice of the other children I hope it was another mickey

[bunny]

While Lucca was making the mix for the pancakes I was putting all we needed on the table. Lucca loved to cook, I wouldn’t be surprised him would turn out being a cook one day. Right the moment I thought that half of the mix fall out. A grin came on my face, all right maybe he was far from being a cook, but at least he tried. I sighed and sat down on the chair. It really was hard being without Deryck. And I knew I couldn’t complain because I had been without him for five years, so just four months shouldn’t be that hard. But it was all so different. Being in this house remembered me on everything that happened five years ago. Like Deryck never went to jail, that these five years never happened. That we got a kid and just past over some time. I just felt five years younger again. And all I wanted was to be that crazy 20 year old who is hopeless in love, spending all day in bed hugging and kissing. But now it was all different I had to be responsible, a grown up and a good mother. While when I was with Petra all I could think about was Lucca. It’s just strange how fast your live can make a turn. But really it all turned to the better side. All thought I really missed the man I loved. Next to that I still had to think about Mickey. Never I had heard Deryck talk about him. But he did knew where we were living. I starred out of the window, somehow I just felt empty. Like I needed Deryck around me, just to breath fresh air. This really wasn’t making any sense to me. How could I live that easy with out him for that long. While this was so hard to take? Gosh I really needed him, without him I just felt nothing. Stop thinking that way Avril! I said to myself while I felt sadness come in to me. I didn’t had felt this way for a while now. But I couldn’t help it I felt miserably and I just needed him to hold me. As I heard the phone rang I felt a little tear cheesing me behind the eye. I took a deep breath and picked up the phone.

‘’Hello?’’

‘’Hey baby, it’s with Deryck.’’

Somehow by only hearing his voice everything lighted up. All sadness fell off my shoulders. The view through the window looked better and the mess Lucca made seemed to be less worse. How could life look so different by only hearing someone’s voice. How was it possible that Just one word can have make this big of a change. Why did I felt that hopeless without him, while maybe just a few words through the phone could make me feel better and give me the power just to hang on just a little longer. I just wished I wasn’t this weak. That I could tell myself not to act like a teenager, but like an adult. I wished of once I could listen to myself, be able to stop these tears streaming down my face. Or maybe it was supposed to be this way, it was supposed to be this hard. But every breath I heard through the phone made me cry even more. All I wanted was to get hold by him. Let me getting hugged, getting loved and kissed. I couldn’t believe he was this far away, while I needed him this close.

‘’Good-night, good-night! Parting is such sweet sorrow
That I shall say good-night till it be morrow’’ william shakespeare

[Miss Type A]

Poor Av...
Deryck needs to come back

Great Update.

[pigster]

AWW

[SweetElf]

updateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Please ^_^

[angie17]

awwww....so sweet