A long way to go [part 3]

[bunny]

For about two days now I had spent in bed. Going back to my old bad habit, which was drinking vodka and using some cocaine. Not that much I used to, but enough to make me stop think of her. I didn’t want to cry like the first day I got home. Crying was for girls, not for real man. Next to laying in bed I was also looking around Avril’s stuff. Which made me noticed that her engagement ring was not in the house. Which meant that she was wearing it. Or at least took it with her. I still didn’t knew what to think of that. All ready I had called the mental hospital, to check if they knew anything about her. But they couldn’t answer my question. Live seem to suck at this moment. My mom had called me ten times each day. Since she knew that I got out jail. But I didn’t picked up once. If it was up to me I didn’t want to go anywhere then in the house. But I got bored, bored of just laying. So I turned and opened Avril’s nightstand. There were a few books laying in there. I took out two of them and decided to read them. Both books were about dealing with depression. Avril was depressed she used to self harm and had even tried to kill herself. That was why she got in the hospital. But it was all right. I loved her anyway. She had never felt like she belonged here in this live. Only when she was around me. At least that’s what she said. I took an other glass of vodka and opened the book. But I couldn’t read it. My eyes got lazy. So I drunk two other glasses of vodka. But it got even worse. I had to do something, I could hardly look straight. S I graphed the cocaine next to me and used it all. Like that would make it any better. My head started to spin. The wall turned upside down and the drawing on the book came alive. Meanwhile I felt like falling in to a black hole. Like my head just felt of my body, down to a black hole of live. What happened next I didn’t seem to understand. It got all black and white and the back to black again. But it felt good, maybe to good. I got weightless, and felt like flooding on the sea. After that nothing happened. I just saw nothing but black. I felt nothing but cold. I tried to think about what I felt but I couldn’t. I tried to move my bonze but I couldn’t.

[Morenor]

O oh not the drug problem again ....


Oh well.. awesome.. like always

[misstypea]

oh noooooo
he can't be addicted again!

Avril, come out! Save him!


Nice Update

[bunny]

^^


well that the thing of this story

no one knows if Avril is even alive, and even if she would no one knows if she is even able to help him out since she has problems herself

wait................









someone does know




me

[misstypea]

Of course she is alive.
It wouldn't have a story if she was dead

You wouldn't do that... would you?

[bunny]

lol let me think of that oke?

and guys I am not gonna update after just two people commented so....

[angie17]

yuo have to update!!!

[bunny]

One week later
Never again I wanted to use drugs. I knew I had said this many times before. But what happened last week wasn’t anything that I wanted to feel again. I thought I nearly died. My hotel room was small but nice. I had decided to go to New York. Since it was the only place that came in my head while thinking of Avril. We had meet here and fall in love. We both used to live here and I knew how much Avril loves New York. But getting here was one, finding her was second. There where so many people living in this town. It was insane. How to find one person here, without knowing where to look. Luckily an old friend of mine wanted to help me. He also lived in New York and used to live next to me. He knew how much I loved Avril and saw our love growing since day one.

‘’So Jim, shall we go then?’’ Jim had came over to the hotel to meet up with me. So we would go together through Central Park and all the other places she might can be.

‘’Yes, I had all ready called some people to check if they knew her. One of the is a painter in Central Park. I said he had might see her. But I wouldn’t get your hopes on it. There are many pretty girls with blond hair and blue eyes.’’ While saying that he got a grin on his face.

‘’Yeah, I got a feeling you know all about girls with blond hair and blue eyes.’’

‘’That are you words, not mine.’’ We both started to laugh.

‘’Let’s find you girl with blond hair and blue eyes.’’ He throw my jacked to my head and opened the door.

‘’what are you waiting for? She is out there, all you have to do is find her and tell her what you feel.’’

I smiled he was right it was easy all I have to do is find her. Kiss her and hold her and then never ever let her go again.

[misstypea]

awww!
that's great!!!

Can wait for the next update!