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[O Captain My Captain]

Eh, I don't really care if she says that as long as it doesn't cause the thread to turn to spam. Like, it can be funny, but it shouldn't become spam and annoying. The thread should feel like someone can feel free to post something serious, even when the conversation is funny, without having it be totally awkward and out of place.

Did that make sense?

[CrazyCas]

yep it did. and i agree

[Lewymocha Original]

Yeah I was just makin sure

[ohhaipostsecret]

Helloo this is the same person that posted before when jewels and Lewymocha Old Style or whoever got in that fight about me being gay or something. I don't know what happened there, but whatever. I haven't been on here in awhile, so I thought I would respond.

Everybody was like "There is no problem with being gay! You should not be ashamed of yourself for that". Well I am, because it's totally against my beliefs. And I mean completely against my beliefs. I know how wrong it is, but I can't stop.

I started being gay when I was 7, in my first year at school when I kissed my friend Danny on the playground a lot. Ever since, I've had feelings for guys. My ex-best friend knows. We're not best friends anymore because of it. My parents kind of know, but they don't really.

I'm gay because I'm unhappy, and I'm unhappy because I'm gay. There isn't one second of the day that goes by where I don't think about guys sexually. It's just how it happens. I just develop feelings for guys so easily.

I know killing myself is not the answer. I don't think I'd kill myself, because I'm a pussy. But when I'm mad at myself, I hit myself repeatedly on the head with "an object" and go to sleep. If someone asks, I tell them I slipped in the shower, because it's so embarassing. It's not like I'd cut myself though, because I'm afraid of sharp objects and blood and shit like that. It would be so much better if I was dead though. I try all the time to change my ways, but I just can't. I'm destined for hell. I try to correct it, but it just won't happen.

Also, I believe that all the things that happen wrong in my life are because I'm gay. Different things happen every year. Like in 2004-2005, nothing bad happened when I would think sexually of guys. In 2005, my cousin would become sicker each time I thought sexually of a guy. In 2007, I would lose friendships everytime I thought sexually of a guy. And now in 2008, I think that pattern is that something bad will happen to my family or someone I care for if I think sexually of a guy. 8 bad things have already happened on the fourth day of the year.

Screw life, dude.

[Lewymocha Original]

What? Me and Jewels weren't fighting because you were gay. Don't be silly

We had a complicated relationship. It ended up tangling itself up and we tripped basically.

Nothing to do with you being gay aw I am sorry you though that.

And you are not Gay because you are unhappy. You are gay because you are suppose to be. The next step is sel acceptance. Once you have reached that stage, you need to move with the rest of your life

[Lewymocha Original]

I know you!

I forget though! Damn! Every year around november something happens to someone in your family. The 27th? Yes I know you! I won't say anything

[Phili]

Dude, you can't blame your problems on your sexual orientation.

[jewels]

Originally Posted by ohhaipostsecret

Helloo this is the same person that posted before when jewels and Lewymocha Old Style or whoever got in that fight about me being gay or something. I don't know what happened there, but whatever.

We were not fighting about you. I'm extremely pro-gay and Lewis is also pro-gay, it would be ridiculous for us to fight about something we agree upon. We were having some issues because we live different lives and whatnot, but it's ok. We've gone our separate ways. I'm not going to get into it anymore. What I wanted to say was that you had nothing to do with our fight. You should not blame yourself or being gay for it.