A long way to go [part 2]

[bunny]

yeah I haven't been updating lately, but I will try to write something right now

[avrilrocks4lyf]

woooo yayyy hows the update doing?

[bunny]

bad, I still didn't wrote and now have to go to my music class, I think it will get tomorrow that I will post an update, but ''a drama called life'' is update

[avrilrocks4lyf]

ok then have fun at the music class

[bunny]

Avril
Nothing even the look of Deryck sleeping made it chance. Nothing I did or looked at made it go away. For two months now it had been away. Two months of pure happy ness. But now, on a way I didn’t understand it had came back. The black thing that I called my dark soul had came back In me. I didn’t want to feel it I didn’t want to think these bad thoughts. But I couldn’t fight against it. It was so strong. My heart was beating faster while I looked at Deryck. He was so damn cute, but it didn’t moved me, it didn’t moved me at all. He looked cute, but it wouldn’t help me with anything. First my feet and then the rest of my body got out the bed. On naked feet’s I walked to the bathroom of our house. While I stood in front of the mirror there was nothing wrong with me, nice hair, nice body and even nice looks. But when I pulled off my shirt that look at me chanced. It was messed up everything. The scares where all over the place. Not just one or two, but so many. A lot of them had fade away. But one scar will no one see. A scar deep in my heart. It will never fade away. I hated it, I hated myself and I hated the fact that Deryck thought he was understanding me. How could he understand me if I wasn’t even understanding myself?! I looked at the knife in my hand. But could I go and cut myself again? I promised something two months ago. Not to Deryck or God. But to myself, that I would step out of this. But it was so hard to believe it would ever go over. In ten years I would still be the same person, but will may thoughts be the same to?

[Morenor]

OMG You never told me that this was that bad

[bunny]

I just posted one, geus we posted at the same time

[avrilrocks4lyf]

omg she cant go down that path again she cant cut her self

[Morenor]

^ Yes we just posted at the same time but I changed it

[Seyary_Minamoto]

NOOOOOOO!!!! If she cuts herself again I'll cry!

[avrilrocks4lyf]

we need a update plzzzz

[Morenor]

I see you are online mommy, you can't hide frome me, UPDATE !! Even I'm gonna update